thing to possibly look forward to.

i forgot to mention that a lady from the eye place that i interviewed last week told me that she'd call me this monday and tell me if i got the job and she never called- so i kinda assumed that they just found someone else- UNTIL yesterday when the lady called me and said that she hadn't forgot about me, she still has to speak to the woman in charge of hiring- who was sick yesterday and she'd call me on friday after she spoke to her. so the good news is that i could POSSIBLY have a new job! like i believe i said before, my job coach said before i had my interview last week that she remembered this employer being interested in hiring me before- i remember too but it may have been another location? it's nice that she didn't just leave me hanging on the interview and ACTUALLY updated me about why she hadn't got back to me though. i can't get my hopes up about getting a job here because my job coach and i remember interviewing here before- i'm pretty sure i've interviewed there at least three times before. i suppose persistance looks appealing? whatever it is, i still have a shot- just gotta keep my head up. my neck hurts like a bitch now though.. so it'll probably hurt like a bitch when i'm literally holding my head up. getting botox shots and going through immense pain for JUST 3 or 4 months of relief gets inconvenient and ridiculous ESPECIALLY since i've been having botox shots in my damn neck since i was SIXTEEN. so that's nearly 23 years of that shit. i told my psychologist about one of the last times i had the botox shots in my neck and they sedated me so i couldn't feel the pain but i remember screaming at the top of my lungs because it hurt so bad- so i actually woke up with a sore throat and barely any voice for probably an hour or two. i just asked the nurse who's filling my anodyne machine if i should see if i can get the doctor to write me a prescription for arthritis meds because in case i fell, my bones wouldn't be damaged or in pain so much. she said that would be a good idea, i just needed to speak to whoever scheduled my appointments with my doctor and they'd have me take a bone density test. i KNOW that i've already had one of those when i was still living in burnsville, they probably need a more recent test though. so i need to ask my care coordinator to get a doctor to schedule a bone density test. i know that i'll be screwed IF and WHEN i fall. one of the good things about this particular apartment is that it's carpeted, so it doesn't hurt AS BAD when i fall.